Looking through friends' 'being foreigner' adventures in other countries, and looking at myself as I write in English on facebook and write a text in Korean..
I really, really wanted to be a foreigner. To be somewhere where the flaws of a society are too detached to matter to you other than as a unique characteristic, to still find the beauty in every day things, to be able to wake up excited to another day of adventures, to feel thankful and blessed to have the opportunity of being in a foreign country...
all things I don't need to wait to possess until I go somewhere foreign, or in my case, feel foreign. Midst the confusion of living a life that I believe to be a record breaking achievement in having pushed the boundaries of what it means to be Korean-American, and having achieved a level of Koreanness where the 'life is beautiful and I am curious about everything as a foreigner' card no longer works, I will still regain the reins again and enjoy my life.
So says the grad student~
